You decide to take a break from everything
even if it’s just for a while.
You walk down the road, to a coffee shop all alone
having nothing to smile. You sit on a chair
with mobile in your pocket and earpiece in your ear
then you wonder, “Why did life become so unfair?”.
You order a cold mocha
wait for some time
still trying to figure out
what’s going in your mind?
Your order arrives
and you think to yourself
hope my brain doesn’t think of it as another bribe.
You take the straw in your mouth and pray
that coffee would flood up the drought.
You see the liquid coming through the straw, twisting and turning
hoping it would cool up your soul that has been burning.
It’s summer yet, you are shivering, your hands, legs, body won’t stop shaking
is it the coldness of the mocha or
just another poem inside you baking?
The bitterness and sweetness make you realize aren’t that what life is? both bitter and sweet.
You stare out of the window but you don’t enjoy the serenity, the fluffy cotton-like clouds, the greenery
instead, you are fixated in the clouds that is all dark and look like wet stones,
the barren land, and other depressing stuff.
You lit yourself a cigarette
you inhale some smoke and it makes your mind all foggy which already is clouded.
You see the smoke and ponder if it is making a figure of something.
After some moment you see those ice cubes in your cup,
that is as cold as your heart and you run down the spoon to search choco-chips
just like you search for some kindness in your heart.
You finish the smoke and put out the cigarette thinking
why can’t I put out my insecurities, just like that?
After everything is done
you leave the shop
with that luggage in your heart
and the soothing music of the song.